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| Winter can be very long, cold and dark~ I do not feel ready, (mentally or physically). So I started walking 30 min 3x a week, and I started using a Seasonal Affective Disorder light...also know as S.A.D. It is something that happens in Northern climates. I have also had a major "pity party" with the LORD. I had begged Him to heal me, show me what I need to do to feel better, to answer all my prayers....especially about my hope and dreams...I have come to the conclusion that I am not a Saint, I do not like pain and suffering, I do not want it, (even though I "OFFER IT UP" )~pain and suffering stink. I get very confused about pain and suffering as well as despair! JESUS' death was perfect! HIS DEATH IS perfect, there is not one thing I can do to add to what HE has already done....so why do I have such hopelessness? Right now I am living day by day, one day at a time...I can not think about tomorrow, next week, my hopes or my dreams...they are gone...I can only think about today, right now. I thank God for You, you give me hope, knowing you are out there, reading this, that you care, THANK-YOU! |
Our son Jacob harvested the first deer from our land, ( I say "our" land, but it is turning out to be Tim's land and that too makes me incredibly sad, very very sorrowful). It is an 8 point buck which weighed 170 pound. It will be good organic meat for the winter. It is something to thank GOD for, and I do thank HIM!
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| I did manage to put a few Fall/Halloween decorations in front of the house.You are in my prayers, blessing upon you! ~Tina~ |
