"We are utterly unable to attain, to love, or any other good thing by ourselves"
Saint Albert the Great
Isaiah 43
"But now, thus says the LORD,
who created you, Jacob, and formed you, Israel:
Do not fear, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by name: you are mine.
When you pass through waters, I will be with you;
through rivers, you shall not be swept away.
When you walk through fire, you shall not be burned,
nor will flames consume you.
For I, the LORD, am your God,
the Holy One of Israel, your savior.
I give Egypt as ransom for you,
Ethiopia and Seba* in exchange for you.
Because you are precious in my eyes
and honored, and I love you,
I give people in return for you
and nations in exchange for your life.a
Fear not, for I am with you;
from the east I will bring back your offspring,
from the west I will gather you.
I will say to the north: Give them up!
and to the south: Do not hold them!
Bring back my sons from afar,
and my daughters from the ends of the earth:b
All who are called by my name
I created for my glory;
I formed them, made them.
Lead out the people, blind though they have eyes,
deaf though they have ears.
Let all the nations gather together,
let the peoples assemble!
Who among them could have declared this,
or announced to us the earlier things?*
Let them produce witnesses to prove themselves right,
that one may hear and say, “It is true!”
You are my witnesses*—oracle of the LORD—
my servant whom I have chosen
To know and believe in me
and understand that I am he.
Before me no god was formed,
and after me there shall be none.
I, I am the LORD;
there is no savior but me.
It is I who declared, who saved,
who announced, not some strange god among you;
You are my witnesses—oracle of the LORD.
I am God,
yes, from eternity I am he;....."
We have many appointment over the next few days. We may have some answers by next Wednesday.
Today
Thursday- MRI @ 11:30, meet with Surgeon @ 2:30
Friday- PC @ 9:30, PET scan 12:30 and another one later in the day?
Monday the 20th Port "surgery" placement (time unknown yet). Meet with oncologist at 4:00, start prep for colonoscopy.
Tuesday~ colonoscopy which is at 1:30.
I feel very foggy in my thinking process. I have moments when inside my heart feels like it is shredding into pieces with sharp shards of fear....then, (when I recall) I whisper "Jesus I trust in you!"
Last night I asked him how he was doing emotionally, he said
" I am just doing...I can not sit around and feel sorry for myself, but I am tired".He does look tired, and a little gray in his coloring, but he worked all day, and is under stress. He wants to be able to gain weight before the chemo starts....he left with all our left overs and then some, (but that is not new:).
+JMJ Pray for Justin+
~Tina
